Yesterday was Sir Lal's birthday!He is someone that has influenced me in so many ways not only in running his business but as well as my personal life. Of course he does not know it but his influence is with me whenever I come inside the store and office every morning until we shut down the operation at night.He is missed because it is not too often now that we talk.The celebration started at around 5 pm. We got ice cream, pancit, cake and softdrinks. We all prayed that he be given good health and that he be blessed more. We had fun and he was the only one missing on that occasion cause he is in his own store.I met my friends later on and again it was like a celebration of his birthday cause I was treated for dinner. I only had baked scallops and San Miguel Light beer and had fun tasting their steak and grilled awful (awfully great) chicken. By the way, while parking I had a freak accident. Good that the vehicle didnt fall that "hard".We had blueberry cheesecake. My favorite of all. And even though it didn't taste the same as what I am craving for still, it was a treat.And even until driving my friend back home I felt I got all things right. I think even if he is not around, he was with me on that occasion to make me feel good.Whenever I feel bad because of some things that did not get right in the store, he was the one who made me feel right about it all.
Juggling from some frustrations, to eagerness, to other emotions today! God, how I completed all kinds of emotions today without getting out of balance. Did I hurt someone today? From the time I woke up until I am writing this note, I still can't believe I survived today. I wanted to go back to writing. I am always.
Today, I am in such high spirits because my grandson came back to us. When I fetched my daughter-in-law in the bus station, there was some kind of longing to see this little boy. I did not realize the kind of connection a grandmother has to a grandson only until such time that I had Zak.It is Father's day today. It is Zak's first month since he was born. I had such a strange dream last night. It was not any dream that often forget when I wake up. Until now, it is in on my mind. I cannot believe I got all of that in a single special today!I do not know if it was my father who was in my dream. Because he looks like my Sir Lal. But I cannot write the details. Maybe someday when I will be writing a book.The dream still in my thoughts. But I am thinking more of the happiness I got with Zak around me.I gotta go. I sleep beside him.
My grandson was born last May 20, 2010. He is a "bundle of so much joy" to the family. I hope he comes back to me.
It's been a while since I was not able to blog.
Even if I had that much eagerness to write and with lots of thoughts to pour.
I had a bad day but because there were some bad things that happened to people around me. I had moments wherein tried to fix something that is broken.
I had moments that I questioned if I am still in authority. Some people just do not know how to be responsible. And does not have some ounce of respect.
So many things beyond my control.
So may things I wish I could mend.
But oh so many things that keeps on messing-up.
Have to have a good night sleep now. Tomorrow is another day!
