I tried a wig just for fun but have really been contemplating on how a different look means to having a new life. Getting a different look could be so tough but it is just like embracing another chapter in your life...one just have to adapt...one has to choose good over evil...
My family has always been the source of my strength. I have my flaws but I know they love me for who I am. Having a loving one is an affirmation of my existence.
I have been very blessed with Handicap International. Although I had a couple of challenges, I have seen myself more mature on accepting one fact ... that I do not have to please everyone to deliver what is supposed to be delivered. One just have to be true to oneself and everything follows suit.
From where I have been...
I do not have to say something bad to someone who is naturally bad because ... a person who stinks do not deserve to be wrecked because she is (read: totally wrecked) in her basic form.
And I am back to Kamla because I have deep affection towards the owners and the family.
I am not sure what 2013 will bring but my 2012 was great and the few betrayals was only a dust among the blessings received.
Did you find things going more slowly than you wanted last year? That can happen when the Rabbit is in charge. You can forget all that now, as this year is the time of the your own sign, Dragon! Chances are you'll love the pace and all the action. Your year ahead has a 60 percent favorable rating. That's good, but far from outstanding. So, what gives? First, the Dragon is a karmic sign, which means you're going to have more than your share of high highs and low lows. Not only that, but if you're a typical Dragon, you enjoy taking risks. Dashing and daring is fine, but you know you can't sink every long shot. Don't get carried away or overconfident ... but do have a good year. After all, you own it!
Dragon Rating
60% (9 favorable and 3 unfavorable months)
Dragon Career
Your enterprising personality and sheer enthusiasm are perfect for the year ahead. It's your time to shine! Important changes could take place with work -- a promotion, a shift in responsibilities or even an entirely new job. Progress might start slowly, but you can expect major shifts over time. Take the direct approach if there's a company you want to work for or a field you'd like to explore. What makes you the best candidate for a job? Your positive attitude, creativity and boundless energy, of course, so be sure to show off those characteristics. It makes sense to go after whatever stirs your soul and piques your curiosity. You could gain a greta deal just by putting yourself out there this year.
Dragon Relationships
Did you resolve some relationship issues in the year of the Rabbit? Hopefully so, as it was the perfect time to mend fences. By now, you should be on a path toward new -- or renewed -- love. There could be a big reason to celebrate this year since the Dragon loves weddings and parties! Start tasting cakes and comparing venues! If you're single, prepare to be swept off your feet -- perhaps more than once. It could be a social and vibrant time for you on the dating scene; just keep in mind that passionate affairs can lose their luster quickly with the Dragon's influence. If you're looking for something serious, take things slowly and don't settle for less. It's quite possible that the love of your life will cross your path this year.
Dragon Health
Amid all the fun and games this year, remember that your body is your temple. Don't let the long hours of starting your business or socializing with new friends affect your sleep. Be sure to schedule periods of rest -- put them on your calendar next to your weekly meal plans, exercise classes and dedicated downtime. You probably won't want to slow down, but you'll burn out if you don't maintain some balance. All in all, you will probably feel healthy, strong and vibrant during your good months, and not too shabby during your unfavorable ones.
Dragon Wealth
You probably hate routine ... but what if being boring could bring you riches this year? Draw up a savings schedule for yourself. Give yourself a weekly budget and spend with cash so you don't go over it. Don't blow extra money on home improvements and upgrades. If you do all this, you could reap the benefits of a lucky year by coming out very far ahead! Good fortune is predicted for you, but pushing the limits could send it crashing down into ruin. So, be smart. If the thought of budgeting your money and making expense lists gives you anxiety, hire someone to help you get organized. It should pay off in the end.
i am now wearing a new uniform...
not really new perspective but I was given another opportunity to serve...
it was hard leaving my former boss...he meant so much to me but his company is not the one for me...
i miss his dog, yoshi mori...i miss his wife...i miss his family but I cannot seem to have the fulfillment i needed...
with my new uniform...
i am me...
and with my new uniform, one job offer came last week...
another job offer came today in one unexpected place...
I chose this white lotus for my facebook timeline background. I thought of a butterfly but it did not give me the right feel. I as looking for an angel but to my frustration the angel looked more like a bird. So I looked around for a flower. This came to my attention effortlessly...it looks good in my profile..maybe this is it...
only later that I looked for the symbolism of this flower.
Lotuses are symbols of purity and 'spontaneous' generation and hence symbolize divine birth. According
to theLalitavistara, 'the spirit of the best of men is spotless, like the new lotus in the [muddy] water which
does not adhere to it', and, according to esoteric Buddhism, the heart of the beings is like an unopened lotus:
when the virtues of the Buddha develop therein the lotus blossoms. This is why the Buddha sits on a lotus
in bloom. In Tantrism, it is the symbol of the feminine principle. The lotuses are usually differentiated by
their colour and grouping, in three or five flowers, which may or may not be combined with leaves.
White lotusThis symbolizes Bodhi, the state of total mental purity and spiritual perfection, and the pacification of our nature. It generally has eight petals corresponding to the Noble Eightfold Path of the Good Law. It is the lotus found at the heart of the GarbhadhatuMandala, being the womb or embryo of the world. It is characteristic of the esoteric sects, and the lotus of the Buddhas
it was good friday when we went to a friend's hacienda...
good way to reflect because of the deafening silence up there. with a friend and my kids it was truly a blessed day only that I was a bit guilty for having fun while some kind of sorting out my spiritual self.
I told my children, our Lord will never forsake us for being happy on this day. Getting a skill on horsemanship on Good Friday is "not normal" though.
There I am posing with Stone. As I glide with her through the wind, I sensed being with nature. And reminded me again to hold on to the ground before coming back to the office and face "work".
i promised myself to practice dealing with different emotions everyday.
i sometimes dare myself to be able to jump from one moment of sadness, boredom to being excited, "lol" moments and crying. Craziness for some but it makes a person go through some kind of "quick response" to any situation that toughens the psche.
I remember this event when I got caught in a bad moment and have to cope with it in a party. I felt bad to hurt a friend. And I did not know that I actually hurt him. Sometimes I just wanted to "shut up".
Be like the river that overflowed Silent in the night Do not fear the darkness of night If there are stars in the sky, reflect on them And if the heavens are full of clouds It is as the river, the clouds are water I thought of them too without sorrow And felt the depths of calm.
My son said the black one was the last one to get out from Princess (our dog). All the puppies are charming but the black one caught my attention. He became my favorite instantly.
Its hard to find a name for a dog. My son and I were discussing what to name our favorites and I toyed around with Dagger, Rumi but I suddenly thought of RAM. Hmmmmm, I am settling for Ram.
The other 3 will be given as gifts and my son will have the other brown dog and without a name yet.
On a Sunday, all I wanna do is make it up with my family whom I set aside most of the time for work. I still try to be a good mother at my age and so today that my grandson is not home, my children got my heart heart running away! Karlsen and Angelo are deeply loved. Even my Kaiser but I think he is the farthest from me...I sometimes feel not connected with him even if I worry and long for him if he is not around.
Zak is not around too and all I wanna do is think of him. Does he think of me too?
