looking far out

I was out today to sell. I am glad I got this chance to see the market outside of the store where I work. I had the chance to study and learn more the people and the products that could probably be my world in the next few or more years. Probably until I get old. No one knows.

We got one customer whom I really love. And today I am glad, I was able to turn one favor for her. I felt good to make her feel good today because she said "I got no sales except this one (the one we entered in her store)". The past few weeks seemed to be so "lean" in sales in the optical world. I hope this does not go on forever.

There was one day wherein we were "zero". I felt bad about it but I have to make everyone feel good about it. So I know, how bad it seemed for her to some extent.

I sometimes do not understand about some "bad days" but there is always a lot of things to do. Whenever I go to work I try to "shake-off" all negative energies for us to attract good "sales".

Tomorrow, we have to hit some more sales. Make some more people happy with fair deals.

I am looking out.

i hate it when i raise my voice

I promise myself not to raise my voice.

I have trouble in giving my point without raising my voice. And many others misinterpret it as I am getting at them.

I really want to be calm in face of pressure. I hope I could really be able to do it consistently.

I have forgotten about my basic Psychological theories that even when I have the urge to understand other people more than anything else, I get to the direction of being so particular on getting those sales.

I have to sit quietly in the office tomorrow. Do what I can calmly.

crying, feeling bad and later feeling good

I do not know why I am feeling bad.

I actually do not feel comfortable about feeling bad when I think there is no reason to feel that way.

Sometimes I also think I could really be selfish just wanting to feel good always. I am right in front of the computer and while writing this, my tears kept falling down my face without any really good reason to cry.

I haven't cried for the reason that has been bugging me since last week. And I think my body just recently responded to what I have feeling. I was sssooooooo busy that I forgot to cry last week.

This is crazy really but sometimes I like crying.

Just for the heck of crying to feel good after.

eye business

I have not written something about my job for the past months. I actually have a soft spot in working with my boss(es) because they are Indians. I love them as people because they are one of the most interesting people in the world for me.

When I was in high school, one of my favorite subjects is Indian history and literature. I got some Rabindranath Tagore, Rumijellaluddin and Kahlil Gibran poems that lift me up during tough times. And until now I get to connect to all Indian work.

Physically, I like their noses and eyes. Their eyes are the most beautiful and deep-set and I like staring at them. And of course their "high-rise" noses har har har makes my nose so "dwarfy".

Well of course there are other couple lot of reasons why I seemed to love them.

Look at the picture, that is me taking the picture of the store.

That is where I work now. In the "eye" business.

At work, I have not really had the chance to work alone with them but during short moments with them, I did admire their discipline and dedication. I got both too but I am not sure yet, if they like me in the job.

Sometimes I feel that they like me and sometimes I feel like they do not want me to feel that they like me. I really do not know but I actually just do my job.

I hope I stick to this one forever.

Because of You

I feel so rested!

It is my second day that we do not have work and I feel so glad to be just home. I miss being in front of the computer and write about my thoughts.

It is Good Friday but I only spent some minutes of reflection, my senses seemed to be more embracing to the idea of getting rested. And in between those resting moments, thoughts of work come and go.

What is wrong with me, again? Oh nooooo...

Today I sang my favorite song. Because of You by Kelly Clarkson.



Am I guilty for enjoying this song and the Christian world is commemorating the Good Friday? This song can also be religious in many ways. I also offer this to the Creator.