special mention for cruelty

My mother is not that gracious and kind. She gets my award for "special mention for cruelty".

When she was here with me for many months, I think there was once or twice that I answered back because of really so "not like an ordinary mother" treatment to me. Since then, I did not talk to her.

Nobody will understand this.

But I got to be heard that there are really biological mothers that could kill their own children. My mother could be the top 5.

I just did not develop that kind and loving relationship with her. And I am glad I was able to express my love to my grandmothers. Now that my grandmothers are gone, I do not know if I care.

Now, I like to love my children. Coz it sucks to have a mother like mine that I cannot even describe.

And I really hope I do not turn out to be like her.