Feeling fragile and frail

I should not be feeling that way. The last thing that I do not want my children to see from me is being fragile.

I have been just "getting it off me", bad moments that seem to be forever with me. I sometimes feel tired of always saying I am alright when everything else is crumbling down.

I was in a party last week. I should have not gone coz as I have said " I am so ocean deeply depressed because of some issues about economy"...and everyone laughed at what I have said seriously.

And when one friend commented on facebook that I was the "life of the party"...I felt great that even in my deepest loneliness I could still make some friends laugh and happy.

Maybe I should make myself happy too!