This is the church that I always visit! It is the Carmelites Monastery which is about 10 minutes away from our house. I always felt that divine grace is another relevant aspect of well-being. I only have one such big problem! I am not so comfortable in going to the church with a multitude of people around.
Imagine the church above brimming over with people even up to every corner outside. I am not just into it because of my problem concentrating. Yes, in my religion it is Satan distracting me. But I am aware its my neurons bugging me!
I have to concentrate ("Common Maria, make some sacrifices!") but I give-in to distractions like the following: when I hear the people around me talk, gossip and giggle. I turn to the sound of cellphones ringing and way more get distracted when people answer the calls. I cannot concentrate when children play around during the celebration of the mass. And so on and so forth. I often think, I become more of a sinner when I go to church on a Sunday!
There must be a way!
It is really a struggle on my part!
During one of my visits to the church, I asked Him a favor. "I am better-off praising Him" in a silence. I feel His presence and divinity in deep stillness. My mind and spirit is wholly in his Grace in solitude!
I asked this with reverence and seriousness because I believe my God is a loving and forgiving one. I just cannot imagine a Father who would let his children burn in hell because of sins committed.
Of course the Pope, the priests and followers of the Catholic Church will find this ridiculous! I actually "leave that to them"! They can crucify me for this! They can cast that stone unto me!
Imagine the church above brimming over with people even up to every corner outside. I am not just into it because of my problem concentrating. Yes, in my religion it is Satan distracting me. But I am aware its my neurons bugging me!
I have to concentrate ("Common Maria, make some sacrifices!") but I give-in to distractions like the following: when I hear the people around me talk, gossip and giggle. I turn to the sound of cellphones ringing and way more get distracted when people answer the calls. I cannot concentrate when children play around during the celebration of the mass. And so on and so forth. I often think, I become more of a sinner when I go to church on a Sunday!
There must be a way!
It is really a struggle on my part!
During one of my visits to the church, I asked Him a favor. "I am better-off praising Him" in a silence. I feel His presence and divinity in deep stillness. My mind and spirit is wholly in his Grace in solitude!
I asked this with reverence and seriousness because I believe my God is a loving and forgiving one. I just cannot imagine a Father who would let his children burn in hell because of sins committed.
Of course the Pope, the priests and followers of the Catholic Church will find this ridiculous! I actually "leave that to them"! They can crucify me for this! They can cast that stone unto me!
This my personal view and expression. The only way I become in harmony with my faith. The only path towards my salvation and my connection to my God!
This is a sacrifice that I also do. It is not easy "not to follow" what your Church says!
So help me, God!
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